I'm just getting home now. I couldn't come home after the wake. I had to go to a buddy's place and just keep my mind occupied on something else, even if only for a couple of hours.

I'll figure out what I want to really say about all of this tomorrow (I hope). Right now it's all so fresh, I can't even make sense of this. What I can say is that I've never been so moved in my entire life. I saw some folks today and yesterday that I hadn't seen in many years. It sucks that it was this occasion that did it, but seeing everybody made this whole thing a little easier to get through. I'm really glad I went to the wake, though. After being a total mess all through the funeral service, it felt so good to go and celebrate Rab's life with his brothers, and so much of the metal community that we alone packed an entire bar. All the laughing, the chants for Rab (how about those "bo-ner-tits!" chants? ), the stories we got to share with eachother, and the heartfelt hugs really made me smile. Going home without that celebration would've cast a totally different shadow on today for me.

While I'm remembering, special thanks to Disco Volante/Don for being my partner in crime this weekend. Driving around with you so much today and yesterday helped me keep my head straight. You're a good friend, and a classy dude

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As I stood there during the service today listening to Rab's family & friends, I was struck by a simple thought: I stay on the board because I genuinely love these people. And it's true -- I really do love you guys, and wish you all the best.

And in that spirit, if anyone needs the counsel of an old dude, I'm always here for you. Just send me a PM. I'm around.

Thanks to Syrinx for getting my ass to the funeral, and to Fatal for getting it home. And thanks especially to all the attractive Braveboard ladies who hugged me today.

That was bonertits.

thanks especially to all the attractive Braveboard ladies who hugged me today.

That was bonertits.

some of you guys who dont post much anymore should check in more often

It was surreal to see Rab laying there last night, almost as if he were sleeping. He didn't look odd at all. He basically looked like the Rab we've all known except more peaceful. I'm glad his family decided to dress him in the Iron Maiden shirt because that was something he most definitely would have wanted.

Well we were waiting to get onto an elevator and one finally came. Cronos happened to be on it, so Rab jumped onto it and there was already too many people inside, so he left us waiting for another one.

Rab later on tried to give Cronos a Panzerfaust CD and he blew Rab off and said some nasty shit to him. Rab pretty much fucking hated him with a passion after that (and we all know how far you had to go to make Rab hate you).

Funny enough, he caught Cronos in a pair of tiny ass red hotshots later on and took a photo which he photoshopped the Venom logo over the ass of

It was mentioned that Rab had his own record label called Northern Records if I'm not mistaken. Who did he have signed to it besides a band called Panzerfaust?

Pretty classless of Cronos to behave the way he did towards the guy.

My last memory of Rab was him trying to convince me that Hammerfall was actually a good band.

I'll prob give them a chance again just for him. Even though I hate them.

My last memory of Rab was him trying to convince me that Hammerfall was actually a good band.

I'll prob give them a chance again just for him. Even though I hate them.

What will happen to his record label, I wonder.

NSR and everything associated with it is his property. Without a will, I think it either goes to his family or the state.